Indescribable

I think it happened...

It started with a joke, he wanted to know if I had a boyfriend. I said no where he replied want to be ours. Laughing I mistook the tingling feeling for excitement of people finally being friendly to me in my tennis class where all they spoke was Korean. Every class he would joke with me; reenacting actions he found funny or just simply pushing me to the front of the line and making sure I stayed there until I got better at the swing.

I met another boy thinking we could be something...

It was a mistake, we met intoxicated and thought it was like. In reality it was just a buzz. I flirted but he was creepy... it was clear to me what he wanted... and that was not a relationship.

Tuesday class came...

It was hot and we were sweating... he was finally my partner. He greeted me with that dorkey smile of his as he said finally. As we played he kept hitting balls at me, even if I missed one, insisting I go faster. He was pushing me to see what I could do, he believed I could do better. He walked up to the net as if to collect more tennis balls. Instead he showed me how to correctly hold a racket. His hand brushed ever so slightly over my hand as he showed me, tingles of a different kind shot through my body. For the first time ever I knew what my friends meant by the whole world stopping around me...

Today...

For the past two days we have been texting. Every time my phone buzzes I think it’s him and my heart seems to skip a beat. I have even gotten into the habit of checking my phone even when there is no buzz just to make sure my Wi-Fi didn’t go out of my phone didn’t go off. 

Finally...

He asked me today if I wanted to go get beer with him after my class next week… My class ends at 9 but he is willing to wait in order to go get beer with me? This is a new concept to me, is this how guys are supposed to treat someone? Does he actually like me back? It’s weird for me because this is not that feeling where you act like a high schooler in love, it’s on a different level. It feels like a more mature liking of someone, I’ve never experienced this before…..

What am I feeling…..

What do I do….?

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